the day you were born adam i remember so well .the first thing you did when you were born was put your fist in your mouth to be fed.you had the cutest little face and a lovely head of black hair.you were the most content baby ever well only when mammy was holding you no matter who lifted you, you would let a little grunt out of you.but when mammy took you off them you just cuddled into me.i loved you with all my heart just wanted to sit and cuddly you.i can still close my eyes and see your wee face and feel you suck my cheek and nose thinking i was a bottle.you were taking that quick from me i remember feeding you and lying you beside me on the bed and hearing your bothers and sister in the next room playing .i heared the bed room door open it was your dad asking were you ok then i looked down at you and you were gone.i took my eyes off you for a split second it still hurts to this day .what if i had of not put you down what if i had never took my eyes off you.but it was a small hole in your heart that took you.evert body tried so hard to save you son but you were just not ment for this place.i know your up in heaven with nanny sheila and gwyneth and aunty gemma they will look after you until i come back to you but at the minute i am needed here for nathan jordan megan and you have twin brothers now conor and luke.but my dearest adam i want you to know i will always love you and wanted you more than any thing in this world your my precious little boy my little angel .as my nanny said to me look mandy god give him his wings before he found his feet .so fly little man and send me down some angel hugs and kisses x x x x x x x